Saturday, December 7, 2024
1984: Twin Cities Triple Crown
Sunday, November 24, 2024
My Secret Career 00: Let’s Pretend
Pretend.
Pretend you have been an avid fan of mine for forty years.
Pretend you wait with bated breath for my next release.
Pretend you followed me through thick and thin, putting up with my eccentricities and foibles.
Pretend you defended me from my detractors when I dared to rap, of all things.
Pretend you flirted with abandoning your fandom when Fecund Youth broke up.
Pretend your hopes got up when I formed The Mahoneys seven years later.
Pretend you loved my side projects even though there was no main project to be a side project to, and here are all of them in one place: Fecund Youth, Turf Farm Kings, The Mahoneys, Rhode Island Red, Onion, baby monolith, Bull Cancer, Bomer-B, New Mischief, High School Hero, The Congress Of American Musicologists, brenwillsull, Sun Zed and one last one that you will hear about shortly.
Pretend you despaired when I disappeared into the recording studio for years at a time, waiting for the perfect time to drop new music.
Pretend you interacted with my aliases the way I intended, as performance art projects to surround and envelop the music.
Pretend you made road trips to see me play in South Kingstown, Orléans, France, Paris, France, Providence, RI, Matunuck, RI, Narragansett, RI, East Greenwich, RI, North Kingstown, RI, Harlem, NYC, the Lower East Side, NYC, Brooklyn, NYC, Chapel Hill and Rutherfordton, North Carolina, Santa Fe, New Mexico, and Beverly Hills, Santa Monica, The Valley and Koreatown, Los Angeles, and Ossining, NY, all places I have performed music live.
Pretend your hopes got up that I would have a massive hit with my song about September 11th and that it would catch on as a piece of art that honored that day and all that it entails.
Pretend your interest in ME led you to discover Pimp Fu, Cashel O’Malley, Mike Death, Pulp Fever, Siobhan O’Malley, Dr. Mars, Josh Economy and The Army Jazz Band, Kerry O’Malley, Ian Carroll, Emma Carroll aka Lil Frex, Michael Gavagan, Regina O’Malley, Mercury & Mars, A Wish For Fire (Owen Beane), Poppa Foxtrot beats, Matthew O’Malley, Tony O’Malley’s barbershop career, Mike O’Malley playwright/screenwriter and Sheila O’Malley film critic extraordinaire.
Pretend you marvel that one family has contributed so much great music and culture.
Pretend you have too many favorite songs of mine to count.
Pretend you know the guitar solos by heart.
Pretend you bore your friends by constantly raving about my catalog.
Pretend you keep the ticket stubs.
Pretend you were thrilled when I announced that I was done with my old aliases and had adopted a new one: Bull De Jour.
Pretend you got inspired and decided to write and record your OWN musical diary.
Pretend you got great enjoyment out of spinning riddles and ciphers that perfectly describe your inner life but give absolutely nothing away.
Pretend you couldn’t believe I was posting all 120-odd songs for free on YouTube.
Pretend I wasn’t your friend.
Pretend you were a fan.
Pretend the only thing you knew about me was what you sang along to.
Pretend you already had tickets to my next tour.
Pretend my music means as much to you as it does to me.
Pretend.
Thursday, November 14, 2024
My Secret Career 43: The New Mischief EP And The High School Hero EP
Sometimes you don’t need an album. Sometimes a few songs gather together and resist addition.
I wish New Mischief had turned into a full-fledged project and that we had completed an album. But life got in the way and we only completed these three songs. And completed is a very loose term. “Brainstorm” is done, “Feel The Vibe” is probably at 50% completion, and “What Is This?” is just a sketch waiting for a real work over.
High School Hero was the name I arrived at as the name my fictional character in “Searching For Certainty” would have for his band. These three songs seemed like they came from him, a deliberately tragic figure who was desperately trying to pull himself up and out of the void he had created.
Enjoy New Mischief and High School Hero, two wildly different styles.
Wednesday, November 13, 2024
My Secret Career 41: Onion Hits The Big Time
My childhood nickname was Onion. Which is ironic because I absolutely hate onions. But I never minded the nickname. Teammates called for passes in soccer games by shouting, “Onion, I’m open!” Like, it wasn’t one of these nicknames that only pops up occasionally. It was my NAME.
So I thought it fitting that I would release an album under the name “Onion”.
I lived in New York City by that time and my real career was chugging along. I was doing regular plays, experimental theater, commercials, TV shows, student films, indie films, you name it I did it.
But I was also nursing My Secret Career in private.
The result? The claustrophobic and disturbing Beauty Is Ordinary.
If you’re counting, this is album number four. Shit’s about to change.
Tuesday, November 12, 2024
My Secret Career 41: The Rhode Island Trilogy
I am winding this project up by highlighting each “album” along the way.
By the time I left Rhode Island for New York City in the fall of 1994, I had recorded three albums worth of original material.
1985-1987 brought Fecund Youth’s modestly titled Hung Like A Bull.
1993 saw The Mahoneys’ deliver the rough and tumble Live From The 20th Century.
Following that was 1994’s Cocksure? by Rhode Island Red.
These sound primitive because they were. But they will tell you what my life was like throughout that whole period.
Peruse at your leisure!
Sunday, November 10, 2024
My Secret Career 28: brenwillsull “I, Phone”
This one accidentally became an album.
I don’t even remember when I got my first smart phone. I suppose I could ask the algorithm and it could find a dated image of me from some surveillance footage at a Mac store and find out, but I prefer the haze of my awful memory to pixelated truth.
Whatever day that was, it started a looooong recording process. I would noodle around on my guitar, if a melody clicked I would spew forth improvised words until something concrete locked into place, and then I would record a voice memo of the song as a placeholder.
The idea was always that I would return to these sketches and flesh them out. Finish them. Produce them.
But years went by. The songs started to pile up. I showed no signs of moving towards any official recording.
Finally in 2018 I had had enough. I did an extensive search of my phone and chose the best of the bunch. For every one of the eleven tracks in this album, there are ten that failed to pass muster. A siren interrupts, a note goes awry, someone knocks on the door, someone yells shut up, something ruined many of those voice memos.
But these eleven? These eleven songs are only possible because of two things. I and phone.
So please give a listen to brenwillsull’s 2018 album called I, Phone. Oh, and the “band” name? Since this is in a way the most basic version of me and my music (an acoustic guitar and a voice), I thought I would almost be myself.
First name, Brendan. Two middle names, William and Sullivan, after my father’s first and mother’s maiden name.
It took a computer in my pocket for a decade for me to make it.
Wednesday, November 6, 2024
My Secret Career 39: BOMER-B Double Album, Circa 2000
Sunday, November 3, 2024
My Secret Career 30: #Disenchanthem (This Machine Kills Fascists)
I recorded this one in my office on Sunset Boulevard while writing on the Starz sitcom “Survivor’s Remorse” in 2016.
I kept my acoustic at my desk as a release valve. The pressure of putting a television show together is unlike any other I have experienced. Someone once said it is akin to putting ten pounds of shit into an eight pound bag, and that’s about right.
Adding to the stress was the horror of the 2016 election. The entire office walked around dumbstruck after Trump’s victory and trying to be funny was impossible.
One night I was there very late, working on a pitch I had for an episode. No one else was in the office so I was free to strum and sing at the top of my lungs.
A coworker had said that I looked like a protest singer with my big bushy beard and furrowed brow. If I was such a thing, I should have a protest song, right?
So I put my pitch aside (no one else on the staff thought it was funny so it died a quick death) and furiously wrote and sang the following song. My one and only protest song.
#Disenchanthem, from 2018’s Sun Zed album by, who else, Sun Zed.
Fuck you, Fascists. If everything goes haywire on Tuesday, you can be sure I will be a proud member of the Resistance.
Saturday, November 2, 2024
My Secret Career 38: California Waltz
Friday, November 1, 2024
My Secret Career 34: Rowena
Occasionally something comes to you that seems like it came from someone/somewhere else.
Driving along one day in LA, I saw a street sign. Rowena.
Literally minutes later I was singing this song into my phone. I got home, dug out the guitar, and presto!
Rowena.
I am linking to two versions of the song.
The first is from brenwillsull’s 2018 album “I, Phone” and is an acoustic live performance captured by my iPhone.
The second from Sun Zed’s 2018 album “Sun Zed” and has drums, bass by Cashel, electric guitars and even (gasp) a little solo! This one works really well cranked thru headphones.